I search for stillness

In the placid waters of my still soul
I can see gears turning below the surface.
When my ghost is a blur with movement
I can learn nothing from the churning waters.

I'm sorry I'm changing. So slowly

Sweetness I'm just bad at

Changing. and growing with

Others. don't change at

All. I'm trying to do is be

Better. than I was

Yesterday. I was just

A child. running free from

Responsibility. Is

Maturing. But I'm 

Failing. And it hurts you,

Sweetness. I'm getting better at being

Me. The person that loves

You. Are making me

Better.

raindrops foggy heart
frigid gusts shivering spine
stands but still wrong

______________________

I have wronged myself
And hurt my love with weakness
I deserve cold drought

______________________

The mountain goat climbs
To peaks unseen by mens eyes
And falls to its death

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i hope i die when
the fire in my eyes goes out
like a zoo tiger