Big Jet Plane

I typically feel light green or light blue.
Yesterday I felt red with frustration
Today I feel a foggy grey encapsulating everything.
I am exhausted but I know my will brings strength.
I'm not a bubbling fool, but I'm a lot happier then when I was midnight black.


Father I am your happiness
And mother I am your worry.
Sister you are my catharsis
And my reason for sadness.
Love - you are a reason for joy and pain.
Sunshine you are my reason for living -
I'm still waiting for you to color me dark as I run like a child.

I don't know if you could call it poetry
To write the words that flow through my fingertips
And land within my computer screen.
The signs within me say there is meaning in it,
But then is there meaning in everything?
And what makes this any different?

I want to take a ride on a big jet plane
Lose myself somewhere different
I'm so strong I fight for strength itself
I am looking for a weak beginning.
I want to take a ride on a big jet plane.

Every Morning

I think the sun is rising
So I hide under my bed;
To hide from rays
That start the day-
You should surely take my stead.
To bound inside is majesty
The outside is so cruel.
The people closest to us
Are always hurting most.
So place me undercovers
And let me read my hearts content.
Surely this hero
Can help me escape the damsels scorn?
Every story ends,
When you decide to man the fuck up.
No one ever regretted that decision.
Light abounds the outside world
And I can grin and bear it with a smile,
Because that is what men do.